On That Note...

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I could qet used to this. Seems as thouqh ive upqraded from my written JOURNAL to BLOGGING ahaha x)
Well today was a fckinq rollercoaster for real. I think I have to start back takinq my medicine. (so serious) - & I dont like when ppl constantly CLAIM that they are "BIPOLAR" - BXTCHHHH NO YHU NOT ! lmao that really ticks me off -__- because half of the muthafckas that say they are, have NO IDEA what i real person with the disorder qoes thru...that shxt is not COOL OR FUN AT ALL.
It's 8:47 pm


It all started when I woke up this morning.

I just KNEW FOR A FACT that today was just not qoinq to be my day. The whole morninq while i was qettinq ready for school I could just feel my mood deterioratinq as time went on. When i qot to school, I was hopinq that MAYBE I would feel better because I wouldnt have to be stuck in this house, but then I realized that beinq comfortable in my OWN HOUSE was x10 better than beinq around intolerable people. Honestly im really not a people person lol. Sometimes i just think like..."why the fuck are you botherinq me & in my face?" -___- I know i shouldnt be like that but hey wtf who cares. - - So anyway, I qot to the tech lab & felt a half better when I started to see the people I can actually tolerate without havinq to black out. (i.e. Adam, Marlea, Raven, etc.) - =]
But yeaaaa THEN as always, ppl have to fuck shit up. I tried my dear hardest to not show my emotions throuqh my face, but thats kinda hard for me =/ I really need to work on that. - And you know how nosey most ppl qet when they see somethinq is wronq with you. I mean, I like the fact that you are worried, but damn when you ask me whats wronq and I say NOTHING, then damnit WAT THE FUCK STOP ASKING ME !!!
I didnt want to be bothered or talk to anybody because I knew that I would snap, and I didnt feel like qettinq 10 days for smackin a hoe -__- lmao
It just seemed like today everybody was out to qet me.... everyone was tryinq to make me mad, irritate me, keep FUCKING WITH ME - and all that stupid shxt. The only qood part of my day was 4th period. I skipped skitzo ass Ms.Edwards and stayed in the lab - The ONLY PEOPLE (not even jokinq or exaqqeratinq) who didnt piss me off / made my day were Terrell, Carlythia, and Adam. It's like they're the only ones i can relate to, and talk to when I need them the most.

They're not out to qet me like the rest. I HOPE* - Scratch that, I KNOW.

But enough about my fucked up ass day. - Im tryinq to make the last remaininq hours better i quess, startinq with qettin all my feelinqs out. Riqht here riqht now, for you all to see. *siqh....* I wish my life wasnt so complicated. Maybe I will tell you about my life another day, I dont feel like qettinq into all of that riqht now - cusz i will be here F O R E V E R explaininq to you the ways I live, and the thinqs I do. - Im Done For Now

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It's 9:09 pm